Too Many Times

i search for blossoms
 book i’ve read too many times
 haunts the cloudy day
 
 feet ache from standing
 walk i’ve walked too many times
 spring pops out, teases
 
 to erase my dreams
 dreams i’ve dreamt too many times
 they become nightmares
 
 i see what i want
 plans i’ve lost too many times
 (life’s a rented dream)
 
 he doesn’t see it
 talk we’ve had too many times
 he sees only me
 
 so hard to carry
 weight i’ve dropped too many times
 petals soften fall
 
 i search for blossoms
 words i wrote too long ago
 too many times back