System

Dear System:

You are broken.
Some say beyond repair.
You let them fall into
cracks so wide they
can be seen from airplanes.
You ignore the best and brightest
to honor those who
slip easily into nonchalance.

You offer little.
You take more than we can give.
You let the parents
command the details of our profession
as if they’re our salvation.
You forget the long hours,
heavy with lack of sleep,
sick with worry like mothers
of all our lost children.

Yet we trust you.
We need your broken-down support.
Without you we wouldn’t be here
to hold their hands,
to guide them through addition,
subtraction, how to think, see, be.
So we must be grateful.
We must offer our gratitude
to the cracks, the nonchalance,
the helicopter parents.

What we cannot do.
What I cannot do
is allow you to beat down
the ones who love them best
the ones who trust you most
the ones who are our best and brightest
the ones I hope someday
you will repair yourself enough to see.

Dose

i will take a dose
of your subliminal message
swallow it whole
hide it behind my eyes
and blink back your question

you will taste soon enough
the answer that you seek
though your message is clear
and easy to digest

perhaps you can take a dose
of the medicine you offer
place it on your tongue
and grin, knowing how sweetly
it settles into your belly

To-Do List

email daughter’s teacher
who doesn’t know how to read
pick up nuts
because i’m going crazy
learn Castilian Spanish
so i can speak to roommates
intervene in group work
for groups who won’t work
teach daughter to read
because schools don’t work
sit in meetings that don’t apply to me
so i can’t do my work
ride my bike to work
so i can see the moonset/sunrise
try to remember
that i cannot
make a list
that will quite
change the way the world works

Teach

if eighty-five percent
of EVERYONE
actually did what they
were supposed to do
then we wouldn’t need
pay for performance.

we could just…
teach.
what a concept.

Words

i sent the words
(there were clicks–
not yours)
i spent the time
(there were chips–
dark chocolate)

you didn’t respond
you couldn’t read
the words too thick
the chips already melted

you left them there for me
and i placed new words
under the light
words they shared in your absence

it was strange
having you walk in like that
not quite sure
if you should use your own words
or listen to ours

you waited
i wrote
(i always do)
you flipped off the light
that let them see
what i had written

in your usual manner
you ad-libbed
they laughed their usual laughs
but i managed to
feel less small
knowing they shared words with me

you stood in the back
video on
asking me a favor
(the chocolate
sitting in a back room
unrequested)

i took your center cut
put it in the microwave
and melted it for a perfect sundae

you won’t say a word
you will never know
just how warm
how perfectly cold
it tasted as i took my words
and swallowed them

Tabula Rasa

before this great institution
you have a tabula rasa
you could start fresh,
show the world innovation,
speak the language of the plants.

but in your usual
conglomeration of unspoken words,
you have filled your slate
with water-sucking weeds
stealing the words from native beauty.

Peas

three peas in a pod
you stand in uniform
ready to pop out
and show the world
a new day has begun

Come Write In

step write up
i’ll give you a chair
the keys you’ll need
to get you there

step write up
and come write in
you’ll see the light
i’ve been promisin’

step write up
make your name known
you won’t regret
the words you’ll own

step write up
the door’s unlatched
from your brain
ideas will hatch

step write up
you’ll be all write
put down your dreams
and watch their flight.

Huntsman

like a hunter in hiding,
you pounce perfectly
as I try to escape

you think you’ve caught me,
but your trap doesn’t dig–
my ankle is free for running

I offer you a portion,
a tiny morsel to munch,
but you are not a master huntsman.

you will only see me
as the prey you trapped too late,
the remainder of the meal left on the table.

Words on Paper

you say it isn’t valuable
and i find words that are so powerful
they could climb up a mountain
but they are lost on you
your media-induced culture
so engulfed in desire
that not for a moment could you
understand the sweat and tears
put in to real work
the real work of words on paper

we will move on
and i will remember your post
the ridiculousness of it
the way i cursed you for its haste
and you will remember
four years of debt and nothing to show
nothing but who you are inside
how you see the world in a new light
the people who have changed your life
and all the words, words, words
that have allowed you to be
who you are going to be.