The Orange Room

what i wanted to write
in my semi narrative verse
aspens like shooting stars
on my ears and neck

connection to world
momentarily cut
as we walk along citahdel
stone covered path

as we carry three girls
on our backs up the hill
before stopping for iPhone
photo without full moon
perfect Porto tree and cathedral

what i wanted to say
in my spanglishportuguese
is that love comes forth

in more colors
than the rubio golden lights
of a stolen Christmas
that i could never
with merry words
whisper across the table

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Twelve Stations

she stands at cross twelve
Sunday sun rays her halo
stairs before, after

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Insuficiente

miscommunicate
her words pearls in our hearts
to you bits of sand

Feliz Navidad

city limits lights
summer-like sun poinsettias
green Christmas this year

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This Video Game World

twelve classrooms a week
chaos read top to bottom
i just want to teach

offer renewal
before you even pay me
you think I’d come back?

violence overflows
excited mouths of young boys
and you wonder why

who will my girls find
in this video game world
boys forever boys

our culture reaches
the heart of Spain synchs its beat
yet bites without teeth

She’s Still Mine

nit picking anew
combing through six-year-old’s hair
mundane task of thanks

La Infestación de Los Piojos

My View:

infesting nightmare
day lost to money, combs, baths
laundry for a week

Their View:

forever children
they compete for who has more
cheer to share a bed

Our View:

an experience
shared across generations
our everyday life

Transcontinental

leaves dipped in silver
Cartagena at Christmas
aspens sparkle bright

three languages shared
tapas’ tastes mingled in mouths
a tree to top all

their legs race uphill
grasping youth of December
how i love my girls

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Be Obscure. Clearly

my six a.m. voice
travels across our heart line
you always speak truth

i wait for her words
though i know they’ll never come
my childhood relived

how I’ve ached for this
flash of your love from a dream
you my new ideal

hidden in moments
these cryptic windows of life
they’ll never find us

The Seedling of this Cycle

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you’d better take that fear you’ve carried around all your life and bury it at the bottom of your heart. It will pound against your chest in a rush of adrenaline stronger than the blinking red light that lines your helmet and warns every car in town that you are on your way, that you will circle into that roundabout with death at your wheels, and that they’d better yield or someone’s getting fucked.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you’d better keep your mouth closed and your mind open. You will have to stop every few hundred feet for a pedestrian who jolts out between cars, for a light that intermittently changes to red but only for one direction of traffic, and for a society that prefers feet on the ground over feet inside cycling shoes. You may think that the road rage of your previous life has a presence here, but your language is too foreign for their ears to comprehend, and your Americanized version of right-of-way will never fly with this set of Spaniards.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you’d better learn how to ride the wrong way on a one-way street. Forget smooth sidewalks or bike paths–they are filled with sneakers and strollers. You will need the road at your wheels, your heels, spinning beneath those pedals in its smooth, cracked, gutter-ridden, bus-polluted, fountain-lined surrealistic view of life.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you must recall your numbers. They will blend together like the apartment buildings, pisos, escaleras, and disappearing miles on a bike computer that has been jolted out of place from so many lockings and unlockings, so that its measurements are lost along with the trail of tears that has carried you across the sea.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you must forget all the reasons that brought you onto this route and remember all the reasons you will ride your bicycle back home. You are not commuting. You are not joy riding. You are, with every wintry breath you pull into your lungs, the same person you were when the seedling of this cycle first sprouted in your heart.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you must be yourself. The cyclist. The fanatic. The mother, the teacher, the lover, the poet. All of these rest along that metal incision at the bottom of your shoes, tightened with expert tools, holding you to that magical piece of machinery that is everything you are, have been, and ever will be.