She’s Still Mine

nit picking anew
combing through six-year-old’s hair
mundane task of thanks

La Infestación de Los Piojos

My View:

infesting nightmare
day lost to money, combs, baths
laundry for a week

Their View:

forever children
they compete for who has more
cheer to share a bed

Our View:

an experience
shared across generations
our everyday life

Transcontinental

leaves dipped in silver
Cartagena at Christmas
aspens sparkle bright

three languages shared
tapas’ tastes mingled in mouths
a tree to top all

their legs race uphill
grasping youth of December
how i love my girls

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Cartagonova

top of the mountain
castle’s view our Carta cake
Nova ciudad

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Substitution

There are no substitute teachers in Spain. When teachers have to miss school, another teacher in the building must cover their classes. Since they have to do this, then they are not required to actually teach, as it is technically their planning time. Because they are not required to teach, the students automatically feel that this period is then free time. Their behavior and attitude change tremendously, so that they think they should do nothing in these circumstances.

While this does discourage absenteeism on the part of teachers, what a pain in the ass! What a loss! I know many good teachers back in the States who reiterate the importance of quality behavior for substitutes, leave behind valuable lesson plans, and make sure that their students don’t miss an entire day of learning when their teachers are absent. Not only that, but think of all the people on the substitute list who are at least partially gainfully employed. There are so many unemployed people in Spain who could qualify as substitutes. They could kill three birds with one stone.

Sometimes the logic here seems backwards. They sacrifice so many things because they think they don’t have the money, when it is obvious that the majority of the government’s money comes from sales tax. The more people who have jobs, the more things they buy… it seems like a simple formula to me. I know it’s more complicated than that, but they could really change their educational system just a bit. Substitute teachers can continue on with the much-needed education, and students would then benefit, teachers would feel less stressed, and others would be employed.

Just another reason for me to be grateful for what I have… back home.

Be Obscure. Clearly

my six a.m. voice
travels across our heart line
you always speak truth

i wait for her words
though i know they’ll never come
my childhood relived

how I’ve ached for this
flash of your love from a dream
you my new ideal

hidden in moments
these cryptic windows of life
they’ll never find us

The Seedling of this Cycle

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you’d better take that fear you’ve carried around all your life and bury it at the bottom of your heart. It will pound against your chest in a rush of adrenaline stronger than the blinking red light that lines your helmet and warns every car in town that you are on your way, that you will circle into that roundabout with death at your wheels, and that they’d better yield or someone’s getting fucked.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you’d better keep your mouth closed and your mind open. You will have to stop every few hundred feet for a pedestrian who jolts out between cars, for a light that intermittently changes to red but only for one direction of traffic, and for a society that prefers feet on the ground over feet inside cycling shoes. You may think that the road rage of your previous life has a presence here, but your language is too foreign for their ears to comprehend, and your Americanized version of right-of-way will never fly with this set of Spaniards.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you’d better learn how to ride the wrong way on a one-way street. Forget smooth sidewalks or bike paths–they are filled with sneakers and strollers. You will need the road at your wheels, your heels, spinning beneath those pedals in its smooth, cracked, gutter-ridden, bus-polluted, fountain-lined surrealistic view of life.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you must recall your numbers. They will blend together like the apartment buildings, pisos, escaleras, and disappearing miles on a bike computer that has been jolted out of place from so many lockings and unlockings, so that its measurements are lost along with the trail of tears that has carried you across the sea.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you must forget all the reasons that brought you onto this route and remember all the reasons you will ride your bicycle back home. You are not commuting. You are not joy riding. You are, with every wintry breath you pull into your lungs, the same person you were when the seedling of this cycle first sprouted in your heart.

To clip your shoes into these pedals, you must be yourself. The cyclist. The fanatic. The mother, the teacher, the lover, the poet. All of these rest along that metal incision at the bottom of your shoes, tightened with expert tools, holding you to that magical piece of machinery that is everything you are, have been, and ever will be.

No More

What you have said is true. Just as what I’ve written.

Edited. Cut. Partially me.

Despite everything, castigated for the clipped version I have carried across the sea.

You can still find me though. I am hidden behind these words.

You always have known, better than anyone, just where to look.

Españalution

early morning dark

we part with unanswered moon

new day hope awaits

 

history beckons

brighter than a ship’s home flag

Españalution

 

the wallet declines

what Señor Pérez offered

why some tell us no

 

words cannot define

Barcelona’s blue sky view

man made God-loved art

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A Day in Barcelona

desperate sudden death
left an unmatched legacy
work, faith eternal

excitement below
bubbled above on steep hike
energetic youth

magic night fountain
frosting Catalunya’s cake
Barça imprinted

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