Bought… and Paid For

with thousands of words
one hundred twenty letters
high schoolers shocked me

today? long boarding
last year? three mile water walk
in refugee camp

fathers left for dead
or years without their mothers
fear crossing borders

Somali warlords
Thai school beatings, civil war
their innocence lost

dreams to bring back peace
to a country they escaped
(and to pass my class)

whirlwind of worlds
sit in six columns, five rows
can i reach them all?

free education
earned with a blood-torn tear trail
worth every penny

How I Love You

late night yelling voice
sounds hollow and resentful
just like all those months

from beautiful blues
driving west this nowhere car
hate how you hate me

my world in haiku:
if sixteen years later, mad?
without you, i die

please remember peaks
and how we pique every peak
make yourself mine, Bruce

Cycling Saturday

thirty-three mile ride
sunflowers to skyscrapers
all on a bike path

if this isn’t home
to find yourself on two wheels
Denver beckons you

no pictures today
tires spin too fast to stop
memory stores love

Be the Begonia

they question motives
as all good scientists should
will their stems sun-stretch?

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be the begonia
is this year’s inspiration
its difference is clear

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not heart-shaped wither
soil-sensitive to live
pretty, yes, but weak

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mother-in-law tongues
that survive a hundred years
don’t bend toward the sun

but my begonia?
a gift given before Spain?
it lives beyond dreams

be the begonia
not the wanton bamboo sprout
the sun seeks your strength

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School of Choice

wait lists should weigh this
all on a sixth-grader’s back
the weight of waiting

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but beauty beckons
historic remodel wows
door to her future

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Key to Success

organization
was my lesson for day one
follows me for life

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First Day of School

seven weeks of prep
goal: teach like a champion
with few words, won them

nervous girls ready
for school year beginning buzz
i cry inwardly

this is never easy
each new year a renaissance
soon i’ll shed feathers

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A Ride in the Park

i’ll dream in cycles
flowered spinning summer ride
and forget my stress

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The Kids Who Teach Me

to see through their eyes
i must look through oppression
the window is dark

Endlessly

with golden eyelashes he sleeps
after telling the Martian story
to which only Mythili would listen
black and dark makeup-less beauty
that none of us can understand,
the one who said three months back
that she’s most like me
(all i thought of were the endlessly
imaginative doll stories, and how i hated
dolls) only to realize that
my most responsible proactive middle child
had me pegged

and how can i sum up an August Friday?
it would begin with carrying
an ever-bending begonia
through three hallways
and six sets of stairs
my endlessly flamboyant classroom colleague
holding the admin parking door open
to ask
why are women so needy?
is this why i don’t like them?

before the sun has even completely
emerged from Colorado clouds

it would end with pumpkin pie
burning up my no-a/c house
and my baby’s hands weaving
bits of crust
over her apple pie dream
as expertly as she did at age three
when Thanksgiving meant more to me
than any other holiday

in the middle, with my middle child?
school posters and schedule nightmares,
the signage of every teacher,
where i walk into that school
and every capillary in my body
is pumping blood for students
i haven’t even met

a meeting, a speech that makes me
want to hug my enemy
and wish that last year
could have been mine
ours
and the end-of-day email
blasting me
in ALL CAPS
for putting my students first
even if HE WOULDN’T

Mythili, Mythili, Mythili
who was born a writer like me
a crone before her time
whose head turned towards me on day two
how could i not know
after the
twin-in-looks-forever-defiant-Izzy
and
shy-as-a-cactus-in-December Riona
how could i not see myself in her?

the pie is in the oven
and 24 people will populate
the space between an 1864 ditch
and the playground of my youth
before i can even blink
my baby has turned 8

and we will have pie.
apple. lattice top composed
by nothing-like-me Riona.
pumpkin. requested by
my twin, Mythili.
whipped cream. to spray
in mouth of endlessly-flamboyant Isabella.

tomorrow? we will party in the park,
forget that there’s no cake.
or that schedules aren’t students.
and remember how much,
how painfully much,
we love each other.

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