Gambling

two strikes in two weeks
 stuck in dogless house, no raise
 rescinded promise
 
 this is why they leave
 flee the profession in droves
 no faith, no support
 
 the burden bears down
 when carrying three years’ weight
 regrets that trail me
 
 i want to feel good
 like the queen of my career
 not the peasants’ pawn
 
 but here i am, stuck
 wondering when it’s my turn
 to win my luck back