blank pages, blank screens
 blocked by self-doubt, fleeting hope
 that this will lessen
 
 but will it lessen?
 parent/teach/coach/clean/cook/fail
 how it feels sometimes
 
 no break, no reward
 just a messy classroom, house
 just kids who talk back
 
 and sometimes i cringe
 at how much i live for them
 how i love them so
 
 and never myself