the school door is locked at 5 a.m.
in case you needed to know,
your key card will conjure the green light,
but the door won’t click open.
7-Eleven is open at that hour,
and there’s no traffic on any street.
nothing but a sliver of silver moonlight
competing with the dull yellow glow of city streetlights.
you can walk with fear in your step
(who is that hooded creature?)
while waiting for the door to open.
listen to your audiobook about the
Roosevelt Panama Canal scandal.
(wish you hadn’t heard it, wish Roosevelt could remain the king of conservation you’ve admired atop
Mt. Rushmore, glasses, grin, and all)
you can find yourself at 5 a.m.
piled under papers and planning,
sleep surrendered to 4-prep stress,
solace comes from pre-dawn accomplishments.
(the door clicks open at 5:30.
before the secretary can check you in.
before breakfast lunch carts arrive,
and hundreds of hungry hands hanker for your time)
you can start a day at 5 a.m.
it will be inundated with a quagmire of mother’s guilt and teacher’s helplessness,
all because of a shuttered door.
Author: lovizmytrio
Popcorn
my voice is hoarse from a discussion–
vibrant questions popping up all around,
a cacophony of comments
reaching full engagement
it makes me remember why
why i wake at 4:44,
why i’ve given up weekends,
why i plan all summer
and come home each day
ready to drop dead from
an exhaustion so deep
it reaches into my soul
“this is a great topic, Miss.”
“what a question–so hard to answer.”
“today i actually like this class.”
today i actually like my job.
because those early hours,
lost weekends, lack of summer break,
they all pop up around me,
a cacophony of opportunity
to be the teacher i strive to be
Sleepless
recurring nightmare
hit me harder with midnight
than the purring cat
Blue
a late-start, no-student day
gave me the gift of mornings
i’ve lost too many times to count–
fixing hair, pushing swings, sipping tea,
taking in the blue reflection
before the real blue settles on my shoulders
as i face the reality of tall, heavy doors
that keep me from being my best
(but i have those smiles
swinging circles in my soul,
reminding me of the
calming beauty of blue)
Trailing
more than thirty-three miles
too long for these sedentary legs
trying to race the sun
trying to find my way home
with little headwind and my blue-sky view
Pandora playlist popping me along
everything should be perfect
everything should be all right
but rejection trails behind tire spins
blocking my perfect peak view
making me regret it again, again
making me wish i never left
what is it about me that they hate?
that is the constant question i ask
trying to find February sun
trying to be the me they want
Awakening
though the leaves are dark and gray
spring warmth has peeked into February
bringing bright buds of hope
out from under winter’s dust
i spend the afternoon on my knees
pulling back remnants of last year
tossing battered bits into the compost
readying my earth for its awakening
red and green and even aspen
tease me from their burrowed roots
promising with winter’s end
that color can come back home
Opposites Attract
it’s hard to swallow
differences that divide us
though our aim’s the same
Always as it Sets
a sunset of hope
that tomorrow will bring light
to mountains, valleys
Searching for Kinder Eyes
walk beneath my blue sky
kids joke and whine, just like mine
and meet the kinders
bright-eyed, on the rug
so excited to see us
they only have hope
i wish they’d share it
with my downtrodden walkers
who lose it daily
Wordsmith
Tuesday blues bite hard
bad choices all around me
and no good advice
i wish i had words
to erase the ones i said
but it’s so hard to
girls treated that way
burns the blood in mama’s veins
and i won’t take it
to come home to lies
harsh words with my own daughter
whom i live to save
i need a true rest
a moment of clarity
free from vicious words
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