Essay

Can I write a long essay
instead of creating a PowerPoint?

should I hear words such as this
when writing, writing, writing is my life
and that is all he’s asking to do
and all that I’m denying him?

Yes I should, because I am building
twenty-first century learners
who know how to create action buttons
and add in Googled graphics
transitions that pop and sparkle,
and change the colors of their fonts.

Yes, these are the important skills
that will carry them into English 101
where they will sit amongst 600 others
and struggle to understand thesis,
paragraphs, critical thinking that I,
with this PowerPoint, have denied him.

The Wall

how can i make you see
that with bricks stacked up
one by one in your way,
that with no bulldozer
or sledgehammer, you will
have to pull them down
one by one, tossing them
to the ground and climbing
over the remainder of the wall
that keeps you here?

i wish i could actually build it
and you could actually climb it
break it
take it with you

but i can’t. i can only offer
the parts you will need to
assemble your own hammer,
your own destructive machine.
and i can only hope that you will
take the time to put the parts
together and break through the wall.

Cotton

Try stuffing cotton in,
then maybe you could hear me better,
because even when I SHOUT!
you turn away and talk.

I have a bag right here,
fresh from the store,
shorn from the greatest
polyester plant in China.

Perhaps if I sent you there,
where students must stand
at silent attention when the
teacher enters the room,

and crowd into one hundred
lecture-style desks lined up
like building blocks in their
echoed cave, you would listen.

But for now, let me take a
piece of polyester-cotton ball,
one for each ear, so at the very least,
I won’t have to listen to you.

Drowning

i’m underwater
barely able to breathe
so stop trying to talk to me.

Birthday Party

it is her first invite
(i wish it was her last)
and we sit in awkward silence
exchanging knowing looks

we’re surrounded by excess fat
skimmed off meat
once set aside just for the rich that has
oozed into our barely-middle class neighborhood

in gluttonous globs it surrounds
even the youngest rosy cheeks,
tripping and slipping their every step
as they unwrap, unwrap, unravel.

by coming here today, we are guilty,
and though our portion size is smaller,
it sits at the edge of the heaped-to-ceiling plate,
torn to bits in minutes by a ferocious four-year-old.

we take our leftovers in six baggies home,
but they are not for the dog. they are for us,
our girls, to chew on all evening, to try and
fill the growling hole in our gut-wrenched stomachs.

My Call

i can’t write these words
without the acrid taste
of your absurdity
resting on my fingertips.

you may think
your mightier-than-thou
attitude makes you
stronger than us lesser-thans

but no one could be
lesser than you
with your cold, know-it-all words
and your severe lack of respect.

you may think you’re
calling it like it is, but all
you are really doing
is being the pot.

i am not the kettle,
so don’t try to twist this
around with the knives
you’ve stuck in our backs.

we can play like this all night,
idiom after idiom,
idiot after idiot,
but i think i’ll call it a day.

In This World

with the words
O my brothers
O my brothers
Anthony Burgess
stings my ears with
a new kind of violence
just as the wind
stings my skin
and the sun
stings the cold away
and before i miss it
i stop, the rogue farm
on one side of my
place in this world,
the corporate conglomerate
on the other,
and snap the photos
to record the moment:
2,000 miles in
not twelve, but eleven months,
the same day i discover
i’ve walked fifty in seven days
(108,688 steps)
and though they are numbers
(just numbers?)
they represent everything
that is possible,
that i believe,
that i thinkicanithinkicanithinkican
do in this world.

Ache

i reached out my hand
(could have touched your shoulder)
but you shimmied away
(the invitation lost in your hollow eyes)

the words sat on the tip of my tongue
waiting for your beckoning call
but you didn’t reach
and i was afraid to bring them forth

your song played twice in my ears
as i pedaled home. you will never know
how much it makes me cry, how you
are in my aching heart when i hear it.

but we are separate now. and you
will never quite forgive my choice
just as i could never quite forgive
those aching moments that i sat there.

i reached out my hand
(i could have touched your shoulder)
and i am waiting here now,
the words caught (captive) in my throat.

someday you will define this for them
(this time i won’t hear your explanation).
but i will wish i could be there, captive,
so that your fingers could touch mine,
so that your ache is my ache, our ache.

Symphony

when it was just us,
your birdlike chatter sounded
like a jungle symphony of beauty,
your words dripping with inquiry,
your passions intense with dedication.

now, bright new birds have invaded
our once-peaceful jungle of language,
and cacophony blinds my ears,
stings with acrid haste my tongue,
sends us spinning to the canopy, lost.

i hope that we can find the place
somewhere between the lowest and highest limb
where the movements of your symphony
will smooth out our tumultuous cacophony,
so that together, birdlike, our song’s lyrics
will draw out the best voices in all of us.

Everything Included

we could walk
but we prefer to ride
they hop in
with three pennies,
jubilant voices,
and a mission.

we arrive at the
perfectly painted plastic horse
covered in vinyl saddle
where they climb up and down
riding like pro cowgirls

when five minutes have passed
they head for the cookie aisle
where disappointment sits
plainly on the empty tray.

instead, we pack on our helmets
to continue our weekday adventure,
the wind blowing allergen-ridden dust,
remnants of summer’s sun
beating down on our backs.

i follow the oldest, who
weaves like a drunk driver
through the sidewalk,
into the street,
everywhere her heart takes her.

a giant, loud-mouthed dog
greets our arrival. we reach
with skinny arms into
the abundantly fat-with-fruit trees,
pulling down ripe green pears,
apples with red dimples.

the dog continues to carry on,
and just as i wonder if he’s here
as a warning for us to leave,
a woman’s voice calls over the fence,
“Take as many as you can.”

And we do, the tangy juice
of tiny homegrown fruits
sliding down the girls’ chins,
dripping into the pile at the bottom
of the trailer, sweetening
our end-of-summer afternoon,
sweetening our time here, now.

everything included:
the bikes,
the horse,
the absent cookie,
the fruit,
for three pennies,
jubilant children,
and a mission.