Small Shadows

on the hill of our last hike,
in sweet drinks at one last happy hour,
their voices and eyes are glazed with joy

somehow they haven’t seen
the hurt hovering around every corner,
their small shadows ghosts to
the darkness they’re blind to

i watch them climb Boulder’s boulders,
skip through the sprayground,
stand fearlessly at trail’s edge,
the steep mountain no match for their courage

if you could gather up their joy,
swallow it with angel’s rays
that stream through Colorado clouds,
if you could see the light they always see

then you’d know–
you’d let their small shadows stomp out
the hurt that hovers,
you’d be free, full of life,
ready to shake up the world.

Homonyms of Hope

i have hidden from you my family
(the largest portion of myself)
in a (dream-filled) hot air balloon
we will travel the world,
place our feet on
never-before-seen soil,
and you will never place the real me

so many dark hours
this screen has lit my life,
my only guiding light
to a hope i lost months back
when i fed words
(fits and fits of words in two languages)
tears ever-present
words you scrupulously screen

i speak, type, pound them out to you now,
my global disconnection bleeding
through a web of wish-wash weariness
as you question my connection,
my commitment to a job you won’t quite offer

don’t you see the white light
that brought me to your screen?
oceans cannot compare
to the depths of loss i carry
heavy inside my belly,
the greatest weight (wait)
i’ve ever known

you don’t see my now-teary-eyed girls
all these months later
just realizing the loss they’ll face–
you just see my face,
stolid for you, eager, ravenous,
so i may feed them,
feed myself on a dream
i just cannot let fade to darkness

My Game Lost

the third day
of the job i no longer have
(its nightmare clutching my morning).
the gossip regurgitated
from freshly painted new faces.
the perfection in concentration
resulting in my words
tossed back at me from
the digital keyword demon.
the ball that flies into the sky
never making contact with my arms.

my game lost
in an argument
a dream
a choice that burns me
with each rising ball of fire

give me a new day
a bright-starred moment
to know that
the person i have become
is more than a digitized rejection letter
flashing failure in too few words

When Dusk Settles In

apology lost
i seek solitude in sky
bat’s wings renew me

Baptism

river revival
birthday boy building beliefs
on strength from within

Blinded

they move through the day
laughter of love on their lips
why can’t you see it?

The Road

my summer review
reveals courage from within
found along The Road

July (2012) Daughters

Mythili

you start off
the 7-8-9 club
weaving in and out of rocks
your memorized lyrics giving way
to a new generation of song

Isabella

always in charge
you lead two-year-old cousins
on adventures far too grand
for any grown-up to understand

Riona

cousinly love
brings you out of your shell
all day at the beach
your words free for everyone

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Weighed In

at fifty pounds each
girls spin them around the room
spin my dream come true

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Road Trip Haiku #15

Niagara Falls stop
memories of spinning life
river of now, then

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