A Friendly Breeze

with endless shade
to cover our car
and block the roaring
heat from ruining our picnic,
a friendly breeze to
tickle our skin as we
dash like flitting barn swallows
in and out of the
water whose shallow edge
feels like hot springs
on our multi-sized feet,
three bright-as-light life jackets
and a brand-new floatie
(on which we take turns,
carry the baby like she’s in
a bath, and hang from
like patient puppies next to mama),
we have concluded yet another
perfect Kentucky summer day.

Haiku Five!

how is it that the
technology to make our
lives easy isn’t?

why do little girls
scream when babies are trying
to take a short nap?

how red can the sun
shine, first in the morning light
then sending me home?

Blue is a lonely
soul who’s camera shy with soft
brown dog loving eyes.

how many cat calls
will i hear in Kentucky,
land of bikeless broads?

Blink

how could a movie made for children
bring tears to my eyes
and leave a mark of sadness on my heart
for the remainder of the day?

because I’m a mother,
and what I see in this film
is the coming end of
the three girls sitting beside me,
now in booster seats,
whispering, “Is there more popcorn?”
and rocking the seats
annoyingly as all small children do,
and the day when
they too will pack their most
sacred toys in boxes,
ship them off to a storage room
or some new little girl’s house,
stuff their cars,
and drive away to college.

and before i can even blink,
all i will have left of this day,
of any other day that i have with them,
will be a memory.

1000 Words

what the camera couldn’t capture:
the red circle of sun just after dawn
rising above the soldiers of the night
the road with fewer than two hands’
worth of cars zipping past me
Riona proclaiming, “It wasn’t me”
though no one else is around
the creek bed lush with shadow
and peace on this early morning ride
the heat that seeps from all corners
of the earth, emanating into our souls
the birdlike chirps of three little girls
as they open their cards from Grandma
the tender bite of medium rare steak
for a special dinner for the five of us
the rare afternoon nap under the fan
of the climate-controlled house
the white half circle of moon just after dusk,
rising above the guardians of the day.

Questioning Our Citified Life

I have lived in a city or suburb for most of my life. So long that I sometimes forget that my earliest memories, and many of my happiest, are rooted in the small town where I spent the formative years of my youth. My town was so small that it didn’t even have a movie theater, a high school, or any type of museum. It had what every tiny town in America has: a post office the size of a small apartment, a general store, and a café for all the farmers to go when their days in the fields have been too long.

I was reminded today, once again, of small town living. Though Mayfield isn’t quite so tiny, more like the famous Canandaigua, the “big” town of 10,000 where my parents worked, where we had to drive to buy groceries, etc., I am amazed at just how small this town is. On the bike rides in all directions I’ve taken from here, it is no more than two miles from my sister’s house, in the middle of town, until I am surrounded by two lane country roads and cornfields. To me, it is almost like existing in another dimension, so used to the city life I am.

Amazingly, they do have a movie theater here, and having nothing else to do after our daily dose of menu planning, five loads of laundry, bathing the kids and the dog and cleaning the entire house, I decided to take the girls there. I of course didn’t need to consult a map or look at Moviefone online: the marquee for the theater, on the town’s main thoroughfare, is obvious from the road with its two daily shows: one at two, one at seven.

“Where is the theater?” Myhili asked before we left.

“Right by Wal-mart.” Of course every town has a Wal-mart.

“Isabella, the movie theater is right by Wal-mart, so I know where it is already,” being the professional who has gone to Wal-mart both in the car and on the Vittetoe Express.

Leaving the house just ten minutes before two, we pulled into the parking lot of the rundown shopping center with the marquee out front. On my right was a concrete three-story building with Regents Bank written on the outside, and in front was a one-story plaza with an L-shaped line of stores and restaurants and empty plots. “Now where is the theater?” I mumbled, and circled around the bank. “Is it in the same building with the bank?”

“Why are you driving in circles?” Mythili’s finger-sucking grumbling had begun.

“Girls, help me find the theater. Do you see it?”

One of the stores was called Gotham City. I drove towards it, thinking that could be the name of a theater. I don’t know what I was expecting exactly. Perhaps a building with a higher roof, at the very least. But as I came back around from Gotham City, I saw the small blue building. It didn’t look like it could be much bigger than the ranch house where Elizabeth and Zak live.

“That’s it?” was our mutual response.

Running out of time before the show, we rushed inside, paid who I think was the owner our fare, bought popcorn, and stepped inside the tiny, empty theater.

“I think the movie’s over,” Isabella pointed out. “Everyone’s gone.”

“That means we get to sit wherever we want,” I smiled, happy about that. We settled in and all of five people shuffled in after us, but the show didn’t quite start on time.

“I think they’re waiting for all the other people to come before they can start the movie,” logical Mythili.

“Sweetie, I think this is about it.”

“How do they play it anyway?”

“With a projector. It’s a machine that runs the film.”

And before I could even turn my head, all three girls were craning their necks to the portions of the projector that actually existed in this minuscule room they call a theater.

Finally the movie came on and halfway through Shrek 4 Riona announced, “It’s a gigantic TV!”

That pretty much sums up our small town visit. We saw our movie on a gigantic TV in a room not much bigger than my sister’s living room in a town not much bigger than our suburban neighborhood. Was the movie just as good? Yes. The popcorn? Yes. The girls just as happy? Yes. Maybe a citified life isn’t the greatest after all.

Waterfront Property

at times it feels like nothing less
than a gigantic pile of work: the
seven sleeping bags, two tents,
four bags of food, two melting-quickly
coolers, dog leashes, rain flies,
camping chairs, shovel, swim bag,
toiletry bag, overnight bag… it sits in
the dirt as we lethargically carry piece
by piece and load up the two cars.

but with one last look through the
glorious green leaves out onto the
cove (waterfront property for a night),
the girls bobbing up and down in
their life jackets, Daddy with his
fishing pole, Uncle Zak dipping the
oars of the kayak into the smooth water,
i can still feel the tingle of it on my skin,
washing away the exhaustion, the work,
and bathing me in memories that will
build up a gigantic pile of love in my heart.

In Your Eyes I See Myself

In your eyes, though they’re hazel
(not deep pools of brown like mine)
I see myself, first when they roll, then
when they lead you into naughtiness,
and as much as I scold you, I know
in my heart I am only scolding myself.

I wish I could take your hand and truly
see the world through those beautiful eyes
of yours, interpreting the truth in a way
I can no longer understand, dancing and
laughing and knowing more than you
(we) should, just so that we could get along,
just so that we can enjoy each other’s company.

In your eyes, though they’re hazel
I see the flecks of brown that come out
darker every day, my lasting mark on you,
the permanence of our colors intertwined
as you dash about, determined (just like I am)
to create your (our) own destiny, letting no one
(even a mother) stop us from getting what we want.

Diaper, Sleep, Eat, Repeat

I have forgotten
Though it hasn’t been long
How demanding they can be
Diaper, sleep, eat, repeat,
The new mother’s mantra
And with three older girls in tow
Whose needs include swimming
Riding scooters and being read to
(not to mention the daily dose of
Laundry, floor cleaning, groceries
And being a professional chef)
I am forever grateful for two things
In Kentucky summer, Week Two:
one, Bruce is here to save the day
And cut the work in half, and two,
Elizabeth comes home to her every
Afternoon and rises with her at night.

Writing (Riding)

the sun is writing on my back
with an early morning marker
(yellow-orange, scented like
moist soil and ripened pollen)

and i am writing on my bike
as I take hill after sloping hill
under my tires, the curves beckoning
me to the end of the road.

there she waits, a giant sloth of
spring-muddy water creeping
toward the gulf, either side lush
with full-leafed hardwoods.

i wait for them here, moisture
writing on my back, as i relive
the momentous views, the perfect
ride that I never thought could be here.

the sun is higher now, writing across
the sky its midday mark of southern heat,
and they pop out of the car with hugs,
smiles that we will ride into the night.

Yes and No

Day of no:
no bike
no hike
no long drive
no dining out
no mosquito bites
no missing cat
no naughty girls
no lakes

Day of yes:
yes, you can fish for the first time
yes, you can catch five
yes, you can take them home
yes, you can cut them up for dinner
yes, you can pour some of my beer in to cook them
yes, you can buy fresh peaches in June
yes, you can make this damn peach pie without losing it
yes, you can have an extra scoop of cherry ice cream
yes, you can climb down the bank to the creek bed
yes, you could live in Kentucky if you really, really tried