Laced

there are marriages like this
the one in the movie
with the racial slurs and violence
then there are marriages like mine
where moments of frustration
turn into passion in the shower

you will never see this

only the kindness
the polite words
that bleed through every moment
you spend with him

you will never have
the gentleness laced with lust
that makes him the man for me

i put it here now
as our daughters rest
as we move to Spain
as we post on Facebook
the reality of everyday life

but no one ever writes
the reality of everyday life
just the marriages we see
the ones only we
deep down in our closets
know for the painlovepain
that seeps out
that seeps into our souls

Mitigation

we drive into the night,
the beauty of a curvacious road
lost among nauseating bumps,
our passionate words
filling the air of the car
(even he shouts out
his usually-quiet opinion)

you might never see this side of him

or the one that opened up lips
along the lines of lakes
our passion moving from anger to lust
our hands discovering a new side
of the world’s version of wealth

i think about the 8500-mile drive,
the quiet moments on the sea
where bland as eucharist crackers,
his words slowly, almost silently, slipped out

you might make a judgment,
but you will never see the side of him
that mitigates me

Denver to Cartagena

it hits me when
i can’t shorten the syllables of this day
like ants along a honey line
cars creep along the dam
shadows immersed in lake sparkle
the afternoon of childhood

sun sets over a new sign
the Chipotle that began on Colfax
Time Magazine didn’t mention the street name
the longest running artery
the heart of my city
only the important facts
(a fast food all-natural revolution)

the reporter didn’t taste
sour whipped cream in a failing
Dolly Madison
nor did he see the long line of lights
run from plains to foothills
bright like a glowing snake
from atop of Lookout Mountain

he isn’t from the city i love
the city i’ll soon leave behind
for a penniless carless Cartagena
where we will walk
until Spain burns blisters in our blood
and remember the blue and orange sunset
the mountain framed skyline
the artery that bled a new generation of love

Baptism

river revival
birthday boy building beliefs
on strength from within

Blinded

they move through the day
laughter of love on their lips
why can’t you see it?

Formula

don’t be so surprised
that i called you out
on everything he already is.
there is a simple formula
to make the world a better place:
be more like him.

(trust me,
it’s been fifteen years
and i still haven’t mixed
the right concoction)

Seventeen Syllables

you reach across and tell me
seventeen syllables isn’t enough
she glances from the other side of the bar
and she knows
yet she doesn’t know

this is how it always is
words tossed in inebriation
through passion and desire
for all that is lost,
all that is yet to gain

i want to reach out
and pull you to that booth
(i will, give me a moment)
because you are all that i was
the inner child spilling out
the full-bodied woman bursting through
because you are all that i am
with this unpaid art
my semi-religious followers
and seventeen syllables short
of everything i can’t quite publish

One Day I’ll Be Back

you hate my haikus
you want the real me in verse
uncensored for you

Road Trip Haiku #12

my grandmother’s sauce
passed down to a new era
her son now the chef

image

Road Trip Haiku #11

Maine beaches of youth
please a new generation
cousin love abounds