Bytes of My Day

two chances to prove
that i deserve to be here
fall, winter, fierce fear

two chances plagued twice
year before? a standard test
today? dead Internet

set up my failure
as Google Classroom crashes
tearing me to bytes

i wish she loved them
as fully as i love them
instead? i strike out

after school, i walk
to get six-day car hostage
and then i see them:

top down, sun shining
classic MG sports car grins
this October day

yes, my mechanics
can charge whatever they want
cruise streets in fixed cars

we’ll be right over
hood open, my car broken
and i’m the failure?

daughter calls: tire flat.
sun, why dost thou forsake me
shining so damn bright?

my car stays hostage
we’ll walk into tomorrow
blindsided by fall

(i’ll dream of driving
of summers off, beach tours
of all that bytes me)

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Savings and Loans

technically backed up
saving docs or wasting class?
back up and reboot

user unfriendly
tech for all, yet all are lost
digital natives?

native arrogance
in a web filled with details
that they overlook

login password failed
because of singular dot
Horton hears us all

little minions shriek
megaphones set, point taken
we are here, save us!

technicality:
life simpler, yet more complex
back up and reboot

Let Grief Live

a rainy Sunday
filled with empty prayers to god
that i can’t quite hear

imagine this life
wasted living for heaven
all to hide our grief

let grief live on earth
with our hands upon our hearts
bleeding to let go

the clouds broke evening
god did not exempt the rain
it flooded our souls

Home. Work. Life.

homework Saturday
spun through web of fall colors
parked our playground joy

old enough to ride
and catch dreams along the way
my girls growing up

last of season cones
pumpkin pie, football flavors
as the north wind blows

still sing childhood
though the oldest’s lost in books
hope i can find her

leaves sprinkle the ground
like fire light our way home
home… life Saturday

Cat Got Your…?

lunch hesitation
one year from Africa, lost
in linguistic haze

night in confession
one year from Spain, llevame
atrás
, where heart rests

lost in translation
his understanding, my words
we compromise fear

it rests behind tongues
from mother countries, our own
till we can spit truth

let us excavate
set our syllables free, give
wings to our words

Give, and You Shall Receive

list of excuses
ribboned present presented
mail-ready, pre-sent

in the hands of god
swirling death surrounding me
don’t want to hear it

how do i work through
stress, grief, everyday mountains,
but you’re not able?

i see days through tears
gather up my girls in hugs
can’t you find your joy?

peace comes with jobs done
satisfaction of success
unwrap your conscience

The Longest Mile

just one mile walk home
to car-shop drop-off frenzy
begin evening stress

science fair project
won’t keep quiet on my mind
leaves alleviate

no avocados?
two wheels, backpacked ride to store
guacamole dreams

oldest cycles home
begins three-shower cycle
all by six-forty

spicy tacos rest
on spicy dream-home dispute
taste still in my mouth

all ’cause he worked late
foreshadowing our future:
crap hours, low pay

sacrifice my peace
for shut-in civility?
i’d rather be poor

rich are days with him
those hours in his absence?
a chronic longing

even the girls cry
as they will with no ‘good nights’
tears don’t buy us time

the two-income trap
snagging our life with more debt
all for image, greed

just one mile walk back
where refugee students wait,
offer perspective

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Breathing Lessons

bag on, keys in hand
lights still off, door prop broken
they wait for me here

never a moment
to take a breath or a rest
once here? i breathe them

spinning hat cycle
switch styles: students, admin
teach, plan, grade, succumb

bag down, keys waiting
lights come on, i work past dark
they wait for me there

somewhere in between
i put on the mama hat
dinner, bed cuddling

i dream of yoga
breathing in, out, stretching soul
hats off, i breathe them

Meetings

wind-swept grassland hike
table-top view of city
where mountain meets home

clear creek cottonwoods
hand-crafted home brewery
where dreamers meet dreams

science fair half done
little girl pianists play
where weekend meets week

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Wheels and Deals

lunch date spin cycle
soaking up blue sky autumn
park hopping joy ride

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