The Longest Mile

just one mile walk home
to car-shop drop-off frenzy
begin evening stress

science fair project
won’t keep quiet on my mind
leaves alleviate

no avocados?
two wheels, backpacked ride to store
guacamole dreams

oldest cycles home
begins three-shower cycle
all by six-forty

spicy tacos rest
on spicy dream-home dispute
taste still in my mouth

all ’cause he worked late
foreshadowing our future:
crap hours, low pay

sacrifice my peace
for shut-in civility?
i’d rather be poor

rich are days with him
those hours in his absence?
a chronic longing

even the girls cry
as they will with no ‘good nights’
tears don’t buy us time

the two-income trap
snagging our life with more debt
all for image, greed

just one mile walk back
where refugee students wait,
offer perspective

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Meetings

wind-swept grassland hike
table-top view of city
where mountain meets home

clear creek cottonwoods
hand-crafted home brewery
where dreamers meet dreams

science fair half done
little girl pianists play
where weekend meets week

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The Count

two-month countdown starts
pre-holiday pay knifing
how will we survive?

just as we once did:
a chef, errand-free weekends
(stay-at-home dad’s gifts)

two sides make all coins:
heavy sacrifice, workload
frantic rat race gone

we could count pennies
or we could count our blessings
we will see what counts

Choir Practice

with stressed frustration
my mother’s voice comes through mine
i’m a child again

only now? my girl
is the brunt of my anger
yet she bounces back

resilience through love
something i was missing then
my mom aches to fix

life’s a big regret
played out in haunted voices
singing us to sleep

Dark Spotlight

once my side of town
now the other side of death
my heart aches for you

white clown suit darkness
metaphor for life we live
hidden in darkness

how he played guitar
for my beautiful best friend
for my soul sister

i am a true friend
because my love never stops
my love never stops

it starts with the truth
the truth of that death moment
when you were reborn

when i cried for you
you hate to cry publicly
even for our love

spotlight on darkness
as bright as mansions’ windows
or September rain

either way, we love
living for the dark secrets
while god drives us home

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Carnival Carol

start and end with work
how ungodly my Sunday
blessings everywhere

painted face friends grin
i enjoy two thirds of joy
my kids everywhere

from Iraq, Burma
Eritrea, refugees
whose faces aren’t here

i guide them with words
never as harsh as a mom
because they’ve suffered

my girls? only joy
bestowed on Americans
with rich white privilege

no way to explain
my work-fair-filled church-less day
may God bless us all

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Indian Summer Magic

a three-foot hallway
blanket, last year’s science boards
fort made of magic

here we play cadoo
spin tales with pictures and acts
clinging to our youth

she begs to cuddle
as morning melts into noon
always my baby

we play piano
i grade, then guide her through math
later, a hike fight

sun swallows the creek
as they beg back summer swims
but leaves are gold-tipped

the baby departs
we have our own sleepover
with love, city lights

they spin spaghetti
dance beside beer cyclists
here we fall for fall

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Hidden Joys

should have known better
taught the oldest to shave legs
sis shaved off eyebrow

parenthood surprise
mushroom tag and night riding
her shame forgotten

watching them grow up
better than the science fair
lab filled with laughter

Glory Be Home

environs burning
a newly bright beginning
but are you two-faced?
will you sell my soul for yours?
beautiful, that face of yours

my girl as witness
to the only one i trust
how she knows my heart

i stand in ashes
created by betrayal
all the years back, us
how you’d turn that pretty face
and become the enemy

but leaves are falling
and i crunch my way back home
you’ll never hear it

half-circle of chairs
watching dog-walkers pass by
we munch our minions
share the glory of our days
glory be home to our days

Sixteen Years Later

only a kind heart
could compliment this lemon
alas, it still drives

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