Road Trip 2020, Day Four

Kentucky cycles:

you can find happiness in

rolling hills, horse farms

Road Trip 2020, Day Three

nothing like my park

and isn’t that so perfect?

vines, dogs, shade, creeks, peace.

nothing like my path

and isn’t that so perfect?

sun, hills, curves, town, bike.

Coronatine, Day Eighty-six

magic pupusas

like play dough for my nieces

home cooked by my son

side of garden leaves,

fresh cut perfect peonies,

beauty from our home

Coronatine, Day Eighty

victory garden:

popping peonies, pea blooms,

pretty potatoes

our first tomato,

reliable zucchini,

even cilantro

let’s toast us with food

as perfect as irises

that we grew ourselves

Coronatine, Day Sixty-six

paranoia wins

my midday motherhood run

(let’s hope she’s healthy)

for now, let us plant.

petunias, lupine, sweet blooms

springing for summer

Coronatine, Day Sixty-four

the sun keeps rising

and he bought a screen for pics

of all our travels

it can’t be the same

but the sun will rise again

and we’ll try again

Coronatine, Day Sixty-two

we’ve risen at dawn

for two months of lonely walks

but look at our view

Coronatine, Day Sixty-one

I went to the grocery store today, and I don’t want to write about the nightmare I had last night where no one was wearing a mask.

Could you imagine, three months ago, having a nightmare about people not wearing masks in Target?

Actually, King Soopers was well-stocked today. Everyone I saw had a mask on. People at 8:30am obeyed the one-way aisle rules, and best of all? I stayed within my budget.

I made a budget for my post-work husband, starting at the beginning of May. $200 a week. It may sound extraordinarily excessive, but we’ve got six mouths to feed, and these are American prices, after all.

But I bought extras today. This bugleweed. A roll of packaging tape. And sushi because fuck Wednesday cooking.

And, my nightmares should end soon.

Because my post-work husband got a job, a non-union, non-seniority-screws-you job, doing exactly what he’s great at and wants to do forever, in the midst of a pandemic.

And.

And you can call it what you want. White privilege. True. Luck. Absolutely. Divine intervention. Maybe.

Or just… fate. The fate that led him through the Air Force to me, that led the boy to our doorstep, that led three beautiful daughters into our home, that led his previous experience to him becoming the best candidate out of all the others being laid off.

Coronatine, day sixty-one. It’s a beautiful image filled with pets, hope, and love.

And I want to hold on to this non-nightmare feeling for as long as I can.

And.

This cat was born to be a model. Good night.

Coronatine, Day Sixty

like a pregnant mom

i wait for this peony

(bring blossoms, bring hope)

the first bloom beckons

all that is good on this Earth

(even the ants know)

Coronatine, Day Fifty-eight (Mother’s Day)

we’re stepping outside

into this beautiful yard

to celebrate love

it’s a bit risky

and only sixty degrees.

but it’s Mother’s Day.

each girl made a card

and worked to include this boy

in conversations

it’s as good as weeds

ripped from choking my garden

so beauty can breathe