Kentucky cycles:
you can find happiness in
rolling hills, horse farms



Kentucky cycles:
you can find happiness in
rolling hills, horse farms



nothing like my park
and isn’t that so perfect?
vines, dogs, shade, creeks, peace.


nothing like my path
and isn’t that so perfect?
sun, hills, curves, town, bike.



magic pupusas
like play dough for my nieces
home cooked by my son



side of garden leaves,
fresh cut perfect peonies,
beauty from our home

victory garden:
popping peonies, pea blooms,
pretty potatoes



our first tomato,
reliable zucchini,
even cilantro



let’s toast us with food
as perfect as irises
that we grew ourselves

paranoia wins
my midday motherhood run
(let’s hope she’s healthy)

for now, let us plant.
petunias, lupine, sweet blooms
springing for summer



the sun keeps rising
and he bought a screen for pics
of all our travels


it can’t be the same
but the sun will rise again
and we’ll try again

we’ve risen at dawn
for two months of lonely walks
but look at our view

I went to the grocery store today, and I don’t want to write about the nightmare I had last night where no one was wearing a mask.
Could you imagine, three months ago, having a nightmare about people not wearing masks in Target?
Actually, King Soopers was well-stocked today. Everyone I saw had a mask on. People at 8:30am obeyed the one-way aisle rules, and best of all? I stayed within my budget.
I made a budget for my post-work husband, starting at the beginning of May. $200 a week. It may sound extraordinarily excessive, but we’ve got six mouths to feed, and these are American prices, after all.
But I bought extras today. This bugleweed. A roll of packaging tape. And sushi because fuck Wednesday cooking.


And, my nightmares should end soon.
Because my post-work husband got a job, a non-union, non-seniority-screws-you job, doing exactly what he’s great at and wants to do forever, in the midst of a pandemic.
And.
And you can call it what you want. White privilege. True. Luck. Absolutely. Divine intervention. Maybe.
Or just… fate. The fate that led him through the Air Force to me, that led the boy to our doorstep, that led three beautiful daughters into our home, that led his previous experience to him becoming the best candidate out of all the others being laid off.

Coronatine, day sixty-one. It’s a beautiful image filled with pets, hope, and love.
And I want to hold on to this non-nightmare feeling for as long as I can.


And.
This cat was born to be a model. Good night.
like a pregnant mom
i wait for this peony
(bring blossoms, bring hope)

the first bloom beckons
all that is good on this Earth
(even the ants know)
we’re stepping outside
into this beautiful yard
to celebrate love

it’s a bit risky
and only sixty degrees.
but it’s Mother’s Day.

each girl made a card
and worked to include this boy
in conversations



it’s as good as weeds
ripped from choking my garden
so beauty can breathe


