dream school acceptance
in the midst of this nightmare
that’s 2020

what next, i wonder?
how will we survive all this
with all that we face?

the box comes early
before breath has settled us
into this next step

dream school acceptance
in the midst of this nightmare
that’s 2020

what next, i wonder?
how will we survive all this
with all that we face?

the box comes early
before breath has settled us
into this next step

work interrupted
my man carving the turkey
so my boy stepped in

my girls made the pies
and set the grateful table
(we made this loss work)


just the six of us
celebrating our health
in a health-hell year

lost in her paintings
i want them to see beauty
but they just won’t look


hidden behind mask
is my sixteen-year-old girl
(her pandemic grin)

i hope to win her
with walks, drives, conversations
just like the old days

i can’t win with her
(this pandemic doesn’t help)
so here we are. trapped.
a personal gift
from her aunt, for Sweet Sixteen
ripped open, stolen

how dark can it get?
two Honduran hurricanes,
pandemic, no school?

and now birthday gifts
being stolen from our porch
while we sit like sheep?
yes, he can smile
with a photographer’s touch
the magic comes out


sometimes the sunrise
is the best part of the day
(before darkness falls)

lovely innocence
found in the curious eyes
of a young child

now masked by sorrow
even with her birthday gift
her eyes say it all

the day starts with tests
to secure her friends’ safety
in this COVID year
negative is good
whoever thought it’d be good
to be negative?

and so, she smiles
and we blow up the balloons
(losing one to wind)

and the four friends come
and she’s happy for just a day
of this lonely life
