What Sundays Have Become

Nearly nineteen years into our marriage, it is time for new furniture. A friend came over the other night, and as the girls piled onto my lap on the sofa claiming their right to me, the wooden leg busted underneath, exposing the reality of its twenty-year-old, hand-me-down state.

Hence, Bruce and I spent four hours today driving between stores, researching cat-scratching deterrents, and deciding on a leather reclining non-power furniture set… that we didn’t buy.

Instead, we continued our twenty-first century journey to the grocery stores. We bought the usual to feed our family of five: avocados and cilantro for our weekly need for fresh guacamole, bananas, apples, and clementines to fill lunch bags, chicken and sushi to make our dinners.

And something more: a stockpile of nonperishables. Beans. Pasta sauce. Brown rice. Cans of soup. Tea. Flour. Canned tomatoes.

Yesterday, my husband of nearly nineteen years and the man so nonviolent that he cringed at the idea of actually killing an elk the one time he went hunting, told me he thought it might be time to buy a gun.

Today, we decided to save our $2000 on furniture because we might need it to stock up on food and provisions before the coming of the war that inevitably will destroy our democracy.

This is what Sundays have become. There is no joy in errand-running, no hope for a new living room set. There is the impending doom of a future that none of us can predict nor look forward to. There are three girls in our home whom I fear will not have a future at all. There are tweets and executive orders and absent investigations and jaw-dropping obstruction.

Soon there will be food shortages. Rations. Militia.

It is all around the bend as we navigate from city to suburb to city on the highways brought to us by progressivism, searching for what we need today, for what we might need tomorrow.

This is what our Sundays have become: me sitting in my nearly-nineteen-year-old recliner, hoping this marriage, this world, my children, will live to see another nineteen years.

My Size Now

fourteen already?
 (just as long to be a mom)
 may as well be grown
 
 and what a beauty
 with a keen eye, a big heart,
 hope for tomorrow
 
 rests in those hazels,
 that awkward pubescent grin,
 prepared innocence
 
 

Heart In Time

day’s small victories:
 video discovery,
 love hearts updated
 
 (these little remnants
 of jam-packed, drama-filled day
 make my heart smile)
 

My Hope for Today

it took seven weeks
 for you to trust me enough
 to sit in my lap
 
 pleasure purrs through us
 as you cuddle and nibble
 and at last share love
 

What Will Save Us

let’s not forget art
 whether painted by god’s hands
 or written by us
 
 whether found in words
 from teens’ broken-hearted hugs
 on our Challenge Day
 
 or in the small space
 when the night meets the morning —
 let’s not forget art
 

Cookie Crumbles

just a taste of hope
 sweeter than a Samoa
 my small activist
 

Make My Marade

annual Marade
 frosted with ice (years without)
 but now winter’s here–
 
 in Trump’s dark shadow
 we march for all we have lost,
 all there is to lose.
 
 we resist snowflakes
 that try and fail to stop us
 from the truth we seek
 
 we fight the good fight
 in songs, in signs, in speeches
 (and one day we’ll win)
 
 

January Delight

the snow followed us
 past the children’s snowflake art
 (well played fantasy)
 
 a day of chores, work;
 making plans and meeting friends
 (light as white sparkles)
 
 here rests our winter:
 cat in lap, tea in the pot,
 (inside outside peace)
 

Cloud Walking

clouds came in last night
 Siri warned of “bad weather”
 (she’s not a skier)
 
 twenty new inches
 of fresh powder, soft as silk,
 came from those “bad” clouds
 
 we floated ten runs
 clouds above us, below us,
 this heaven on earth
 

Smooth as Ice

winter snowy fun
 found in tunnels, trains, tubes
 with family ready