My Hope for Today

it took seven weeks
 for you to trust me enough
 to sit in my lap
 
 pleasure purrs through us
 as you cuddle and nibble
 and at last share love
 

What Will Save Us

let’s not forget art
 whether painted by god’s hands
 or written by us
 
 whether found in words
 from teens’ broken-hearted hugs
 on our Challenge Day
 
 or in the small space
 when the night meets the morning —
 let’s not forget art
 

Flatlining

action steps are small
 when most people don’t show up
 to make them happen
 
 
 

Small Dreams

tiny house adieu
 from our vacation
 from reality
 

Climate Hopeful

in snowfall we trust
 to have a blue-skied morrow
 free from this whitewash
 
 in ski days we trust
 to build a better morrow
 for these sweet faces
 
 

 

Searching for Heaven

even escapes bleed
 with guilt-ridden winds of snow
 that just can’t ice him
 
 

One at a Time

Parent/teacher conferences. Just met with a Somali mother who told me her daughter and son were not able to attend school until they arrived here four years ago. Now the daughter is set to graduate with a 3.0 GPA while learning English and adjusting to life in a new country after staying home and helping her mother raise six kids for all those years. She wants to be a doctor.
 
 She is human. She is Muslim. She is Somalian. She is America.
 
 Help me help them find a place in our #trumpocracy
 
 #standwithrefugees
 
 

The Last Plane

Red hair, green eyes, tall and sure of himself, he peeks into my room, searching for a familiar face after lunch. I have seen this look before, as my students often seek their native-language counterparts.
 
 “Who are you looking for?” I ask, the after-lunch crowds raucously meandering around our conversation.
 
 “I am looking for you. I am a new student.” His accent is smooth and meticulous, genteel and articulate.
 
 “Oh, OK. What’s your name?”
 
 “Arvin.”
 
 “Where are you from?”
 
 “Iran.”
 
 “Iran? … And… how did you get here??” But I have to look away because the tears are already in my eyes.
 
 “I boarded the plane on Friday morning. I was in the last group of Iranians to come.”
 
 I want to continue the conversation, but I can’t. I can’t because the tears will fall. I can’t because I have to teach for the next ninety minutes. I can’t because every waking moment of my life since this election, since this inauguration, have become a cycle of servitude. Of serving this need or the next, of wishing for this and receiving that, of hoping for the best and seeing the worst.
 
 Instead I tell him where to sit and hand him a hard copy of I Am Malala. We will listen to the lilting Pakistani accent from Audible today as we continue to highlight human rights violations from the Universal Declaration of Human Rights (we will highlight thirteen incidents in three chapters; we will connect media suppression and fascism and women’s rights to an education too closely to our lives; we will hear Fazlullah’s rants with an American accent).
 
 My weekly volunteer returns from the library after a time with a group of students. She meets with my Iranian student to explain to him his role in the group as they create posters connecting Malala’s experiences to the UDHR. He fits in well and tells the group he cannot draw very efficiently, so can he please have the role of interpreting the quotation from the chapter and connecting it to the UDHR document?
 
 He has been here for five days. He got in on the LAST PLANE.
 
 After class, my retired-white-woman volunteer asks, “If he just got here from Iran, how come he can speak English?”
 
 And that is when I decide.
 
 I have to start here. Right in this moment. With this woman who drives one mile from her upscale mansion in Cherry Creek North to “make a difference.”
 
 “Pretty much all of the students who come here learned English before they came. Usually only the refugees have interrupted schooling. But most countries start teaching English when the kids are in kindergarten.”
 
 I swear her jaw drops ten inches. She wants to say something, but she doesn’t have the words to describe her ignorance.
 
 “Oh…”
 
 And now you know, I want to say. But I don’t. I don’t cry when I want to, because I have to be strong for them. I don’t tell her that Trump’s America is not my America, not Arvin’s America. I don’t tell her that the combination of students in this room represents the values of our country better than most Americans I know. That a red-headed Iranian entering my classroom five days past an executive order banning Muslims is as beautiful to me as Ziauddin’s tears in the New York Times documentary as he sees Swat for the first time in three months (which we watch at the end of class).
 
 Instead, I say, “Thank you for your help. I’ll see you next Wednesday.”
 
 And that is all I can do to resist.
 
 All for today.