Double Vision

the clinging pain of a head cold
carries me to my new optometrist
(my colleague’s twin: spiky hair,
flamboyant twerks, bow tie over stripes)

he misses my eye flaw
and rushes through the exam
till i catch his mistake
with my lack of double vision

off to parental/political-talk visit
and doldrum Saturday errands:
two-store grocery shopping
to pad our pockets with savings

home to walk under spring-sun skies
before slew of sleepover requests
inundate our three-day,
never-a-break weekend

i work out with Jillian
’cause she’s made me “big promises,”
pushing my runny nose and sore throat
under my double-vision life

the life that is filled with
everything i always wanted
and emptied with all i must give up
to have it

Ode to Period 2

always a mumbling chatter
seventeen languages, syllables mixed
small laughs and shout outs,
“Miss, Miss, Miss, MISS!”

bright, toothy smiles
eyes searching for answers
pencils searching for English words
tongues at a loss

sun rays bring in yellow light
on a room of dark-haired heads
and headscarves of every color
(peace in the making)

always asking questions
“Miss, Miss, Miss MISS!!”
what i hear as i fall asleep
my name chopped to one syllable

Plea Bargain

quit or try harder?
 plague of my life sits waiting
 under setting sun
 
 my daughters beg me
 for a morning to see them
 (no more predawn work)
 
 i try exercise
 to beg love for the body
 that i lost for them
 
 i give up dairy
 and drinking; saying bad things;
 but it’s not enough
 
 time swallowed by plans
 i will never quite finish
 (and ungraded work)
 
 i beg clarity
 from my second (lost) language,
 for tongue-trapped escape
 
 but it’s not enough
 to find that pivotal time
 lost in the shuffle
 
 i beg forgiveness
 from the self i promised me
 twenty years ago
 
 i hope i find it
 hidden in filtered sun rays
 that trickle through time
 
 

This Sunset Will Never Be Back

sometimes a pink sky
 on the way to ice skating
 is all a day needs
 
 

Refill

a draining Tuesday
 ended by some belly laughs
 for all kids: theirs, mine.
 
 i need more of this:
 finding joy in small moments
 (not letting them go)
 
 vocab sign contests,
 impromptu snowball battles:
 a winter day won.
 
 

Super Bowl Ski

yes, the Broncos won.
 but Rio overcame fear:
 the true victory.
 
 

The Real Face Time

finally carved time
 for (drink-free) happy hour
 (where laughter matters)
 
 
 
 
 

Throwback Thursday

i want this time back:
 three still-young girls, a castle
 (Portuguese heaven)
 

Duality

how can one class change
 from angels to demons, stat!
 during one school day?
 
 life of a teacher
 defined by hard moments
 that can’t be managed
 
 

Snow Holiday

these holiday gifts
in the form of flakes falling
make winter perfect

snow: what’s not to love?
silent city renewal–
few cars venture out

walking on a cloud
block after frosting-white block
to share tea, croissant

a break to catch up
on work, good books, coloring;
everything we need

and yes, a snowgirl
to add to our female fam
carrot nose and all

these “holiday” joys
gifts from some heavenly realm
make life worthwhile